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for a friend, gone too soon
Processional
At the memorial for our friend and supporter,
Dead of acute leukemia within six weeks,
The vocal transgender activists,
The ones who write their Kool-aid soaked letters
Demanding gender spectrum purity,
The ones who show up noisily at meetings
Of Harry Benjamin men and women
Claiming some divine inspiration
Of unified grand theory,
The ones who push to the forefront
Whenever government grants
Or media cameras and reporters are present,
Were notable in their absence.
For all their shouting demands for freedom to dress
Their tearful cries of victimization and inequality,
They could not slip from their bedroom closets,
Put on their favorite cross gender finery,
And pay their respects to a lesbian who spent her life
Working for gay rights and a cure for AIDS,
Who used every spare moment for her existence
To capture for posterity every aspect of queer history,
The drag queens and kings, the Pride festivals and marches,
The civil demonstrations for freedom and equality,
The poor, unmiddle class men and women
Who find themselves on the street unable to work,
Unable to obtain even the most routine medical care
Or food to sustain themselves and their friends.
Once she was dead and her cameras were silent,
The cross-dressers and transvestites,
The great wash of publicity transgender,
The purple haired university kids and multi-punctured punks,
Could not find it within themselves to spend a few hours
Remembering their tireless defender, honoring her life,
Standing up among the lesbian and gays,
The women and men with Harry Benjamin,
The queer preachers and elected politicians,
The university professors and the people of color,
Who joined her sister and brothers and her extended family
To say a public goodbye to their friend and co-worker.
No primping transgenders, no hustling gay twinks,
No predatory middle-aged senators,
No camera hungry clamor jostling for position
— The public's eye of queer America —
Bothered to attend or so much as offered a hand
In helping in the memorial celebration
Or participating in the tributes,
Not a word was spoken was by anyone other
Than her friends and the young drag kings
Who danced for us and for her.
Where were the cross-dressers and those needy transgenders
Demanding freedom, liberty, and our total, absolute attention?
Where were they when Cheryl's ashes were remembered?
Lisa Jain Thompson
October 2007
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The hardest part about gaining any new idea
is sweeping out the false idea occupying that niche.
As long as that niche is occupied,
evidence and proof and logical demonstration get nowhere.
But once the niche is emptied
of the wrong idea that has been filling it
— once you can honestly say, 'I don't know,'
then it becomes possible to get at the truth.
-- Robert Heinlein
The Cat Who Walks Through Walls
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HOWL
Allen Ginsberg
I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection
to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night,
who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking
in the supernatural darkness of cold-water flats
floating across the tops of cities contemplating jazz ...
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the poet starpoet
The Burning of the Brain
One hand on a comet,
The other hand on my love,
Riding the edge where stars meet planets,
Dropping everafter towards the earth.
One eye on the corona,
The other eye on the core,
Dodging the prominences and solar flares,
Slingshotting back up and out.
A tumbling rose,
Shedding petals in the darkness,
Giving glory to the night.
Lisa Jain Thompson
October 2007
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Political tags
-- such as royalist, communist, democrat, populist, fascist, liberal, conservative, and so forth --
are never basic criteria.
The human race divides politically into those who want people to be controlled
and those who have no such desire.
The former are idealists acting from highest motives
for the greatest good of the greatest number.
The latter are surely curmudgeons, suspicious and lacking in altruism.
But they are more comfortable neighbours than the other sort.
-- Robert Heinlein
Time Enough For Love
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the moon, the stars, time passes
Mystery Train
The end of the world has passed me by
-- Once, twice, three times more
The millennium has ended --
And I awake to find the stars still shine,
The rivers still flow, and carbon based lifeforms
Still inhabit the weather kissed earth
When the eatern coast horizon dares to rise
And softly rock my radio to stretch
My body's drowsy complaint.
Lisa Jain Thompson
October 2007
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You don't hear with your ears, you hear with your brain;
you don't see with your eyes, you see with your brain.
When you touch something, the sensation is not in your finger,
it is inside your head.
The ears and eyes and fingers are just data collectors;
it is the brain that abstracts order out of a chaos of data and gives it meaning.
-- Robert Heinlein
Time for the Stars
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tasting the moment
Ever the Garment Plunders Me
I used to sit crying my apartment,
Frustrated that time moved so slowly,
Despairing over how far away
The future and the operation seemed to be,
How tenuous this all was,
How dependent on money, my physical health,
And the vagaries of divorce and broken cars.
Paxil helped a little, soothing my psychotropics,
But nothing shut my mind from exploring
The endless possibilities of tomorrow's failures,
My anger at those who were actively obstructing me,
The disheartenment at the thought that they might win,
The temptation to surrender to my dejection
And end these decades of seemingly permanent internment
In muscle, penis, and far too much unwanted testosterone.
I took to spending my nights in local bars,
Nursing pain and Maker's Mark in equal proportions,
Making friends with the neighborhood men and women,
To fill the gaps between work, electrolysis, and weekly therapy
And shorten the nights of disrupted sleep
Interspersed with post-midnight cable of dubious artistic worth.
I survived, but barely, and as I shut the memory of my dark nights
Behind the gated walls that conceal my tears and uncertainty.
I am alive, reincarnated along the lines of the original game plan,
To watch my friends, condemned with Harry Benjamin,
Struggle to overcome our vagaries of birth and gene expression.
Lisa Jain Thompson
October 2007
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